Missing my Lola still

My cousin Paul just posted a video of pictures of our family on my mother's side. It started with my late Lolo Pablo and Lola Maring. And then my mom and her siblings and their families, including my cousins and all the apos (grandchildren). I cried after watching the video even when I'm at the internet shop. Missed my Lolo and especially my Lola Maring terribly. She died December 28 2008. She was the main reason why I go home to Iloilo whenever I can. I was 7mos pregnant then with Sarhi when I got the news. Since Jojo has work, I went home with MJ and Ysa for her burial. I was not able to give my piece at her eulogy for I might get into labor so I asked my brother Jay-r. One time I'll write what I wanted to say. I'm still not over her passing, still mourning. But I'm comforted that she's watching over us whereas before she just hears some news about us for we live too far from her. I still got her picture in a frame, wearing her usual 'daster' taken at her old home before it was rebuild for a sturdier one. Hay, missing her again..