Humbled by a blessing

I am a coward. Yep, I am. When good things are coming my way, when I feel blessed by the people around me, I would glow with a thankful and praising heart to the Giver of All. But when I have problems, especially those I think I cannot do anything more, I would duck and cover, not praying as much (which is ironic for this should be the time I must pray the most)thinking that there is nothing can be done beyond this stumbling block. But He continues to show me that there is really something beyond what I see. That His ways are truly not mine and He continues to unravel that everyday.

Just today, I bumped into my graduate adviser at our institute. I was not expecting to see her for she was supposed to be in South Korea. Anyways, she asked me if I am ready to do my oral comprehensive exam by the end of this month. You see just 2 weeks ago, she suggested that I do my compre exam and outline presentation at the same time on May 30. That gives me 6 weeks to study 7 graduate courses and finish my final thesis outline. How can I really study and finish my outline, not to mention taking care of my hubby and 3 rowdy girls? Everytime I think about it I'd have a headache and stomachache. Back to my adviser, she said if I'm not really ready I could postpone it next semester and just submit the thesis outline. And another thing, since she hasn't left for SK, she might extend her time there if the trip would push through. I can't believe my ears! I was so happy and can't thank her enough. My time was so divided that I can't concentrate on studying so this was really a good news for me.

Why am i behaving this way? I have working on this thesis topic for more than 4 semesters now. I can't find a decent topic that my adviser would approve. I have even given up to the thought that I would finish my graduate studies. I have been praying hard to get me through this, though at the back of my mind I doubt if there's hope for me. But He revealed himself that He's not giving up on me especially when I finally got an approved thesis topic last March. And then this thing that happened this morning about postponing the comprehensive exam. Ah, me of little faith. I am truly humbled by these. I must have forgotten my favorite quote "Pag may buhay, may pag-asa" (If there's life, there's hope). I should continue to pray hard and not let go of His hand as He has not let go of mine.